him

I recently had drinks with a person from my past and he referred to himself as my ex. ( I don't give him that title) He typically surfaces when things are not well in his life....like in his second divorce in the last 3-4 years. He jokingly stated sorry he couldn't give me a degree for all the things he taught me to avoid in my future since I gave him 4 years of my existence, we laughed. This came after me telling him how the current man doesn't do titles. He was like why would you do that again to yourself. I tried to clean it up by saying but it's not the same. Maybe its the love talking.

So, I am ranting because I like this man a lot, but he won't put himself aside and do anything I want to do. Meaning going out somewhere, being out somewhere. I like to go. I can stay too, but not when he is just working. Everything is on his terms and I am starting to grow annoyed. Its like I am here alone except when he wants me to come over, come over, eat the same meal ("cause its not like we're eating together")... I think I am fooling myself. He doesn't like ultimatums, but I have had enough. So like it's said...if we're meant to be he'll come back.

On the flip side, he tolerates my every crazy move. Mood. Reaction. Rantings. Drama session. Just so...I don't know. At a lost.